Well folks, I wasn't going to come here, but thought I'd solicit some quick thoughts on a reply to an email I got from W. The "newer, responsive" me doesn't want this to linger too much.
W's e-mail to me was prompted by scheduling conflicts with my RCIA next week.
Quote: W wrote:
i just want to be sure that thursday night was the only night you could do your inquiry - i purposely left wed night open because that is when you have been going. is that not good. or what about friday or perhaps saturday morning. and i'm just curious, if you had your parents come - which i will be clear they do not need to - do they know that you are converting. just curious. i'm sure it won't be a problem for my father, but you will have to pick D8 up from ballet.
i also just want to say one other thing that has been on my chest - and i don't need to pay someone to know i need to get things off my chest. you constantly say if i'm so unhappy...blah blah blah. i know that is a convenient denial and an easy mantra to continually espouse. but understand this very very clearly - i did not get here on my own. i do not blame you for the unhappines - which by the way you are also unhappy - but clearly you did have a role, as did i. that is an undeniable fact that you cannot ignore with a standard mantra.
My draft replay follows:
I didn't realize that you were keeping Wednesday nights open for me. But , thanks. I picked Thursday night for next week because there's a realistic chance I'll have to be in DC overnight midweek. I'll check with Mr. *** to see what else works on a regular basis, perhaps he can even come to our house if necessary, but I don't know if that's preferred. Btw, I have told my father, but I don't know if he has spoken to anyone else. I'm sure he never told my grandmother. It was definitely a BIG shock to his system--or "blow to the gut" as he described it.
As for our situation, I fully understand that we did not get here based on the acts and feelings of one person alone. I've also heard you tell me that you feel it is wrong and unfair of me to "blame" you for how you feel and I recognize that pointing fingers does little to make you feel better or enhance our ability to move forward in a positive way, whatever path we follow. I know this probably offers you liitle comfort, but I didn't want to ignore your message.
