Merrick, Your right you have grown and taken this DB charm to a new level. In some respects I really admire you for still being in the game. Your a light house for all the people who are just starting there journey. To see you and your devotion to your family is a sight to be proud of. No matter how you look at it your shinning bright for all to see. A beacon to show how far you have travekled and your right grown in yourself as a person. I know because I to feel win or loose my M as it would appear, I won in that I have as you have, become a really good person, so in touch with myself and others, I will never be the same. KOFTGF.

Merrick one thing that has been bothering me though. I think you should seek some counseling on this and I know its not easy for you, I really dont want to bring it up again, but Im scared for you. About a week ago over on Christines thread you showed alot of aggression to.. well the... THONG... I think your trauma hit by your wife in hers and I advise some sort of treatment. I just dont want you to have like post traumatic thong syndrom or something. This sort of behavior... well puzzles me. Its just not healthy man! Forget about your W, think about betsy or Christine in one. I only say this because Im worried about you Merrick. There I feel better now, I wont bring up the thong again.

Hope I made you smile if only for a second Merrick. My answer is the pain you are feeling is to take care of you, Do anything that makes you smile or forget even only for a moment. If that means you go to every darn hockey game in NY, then do it. Have some fun and relax for a while Merrick, you deserve it. God BLess, Eddy