Hi Shining - sorry you're having a bad day. I still have those. I just read up on your sitch yesterday. Amazing story about your XH, by the way!
I have to be honest: I would give anything to have any regular, friendly contact with my H. I have not seen him on a weekend since BD, 1 year and 5 months ago. Just weeknights. On weekends, he's with OW, who lives 1.5 hours away. My H is also acting like a nut, but I'd still like to have some opportunities to demonstrate the changes in me. I have had just about none. I'm certainly not saying 'You got it made, Shining,' but, boy, I'd trade with you if I could! True, it is NO fun trying to put up with his shenanigans, but I'd take shenanigans over nothing. It's incredibly difficult to keep acting like there is nothing 'wrong' with him and to be friendly - but it sounds like you've got that down pat. Keep at it. I don't think he's ready to let you go!
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15