((((((((Merrick)))))))))))))) Been trying to keep up w/your posts but whew! lots going on over here.
Just one thing I wanted to say and that I have found getting closer to God has helped me also. Up until recently I have felt like I was asking and thanking so much that I "really" didn't give Him the chance to take it all from me. Well, I think I've finally done that. Not sure how it really happens but on a talk show once, they said that you must "believe from the bottom of your stomach", feel it, live it. I think I've finally gotten to that point. Basically saying, Lord-thank you for being by my side during this time and giving me the strength to continue, now I'm gonna step aside and stop interfering w/Your work and leave it in your hands. Please help me w/my words and courage to do as You want me to do.
Anyway, not to get too religious but I feel like the "spirit" has entered and whatever I do from here on out is truly the will of God and not me intervening when I want to. Not sure anyone can understand this but it just feels right. Hope this may shed some light and peace for you Merrick. I'll pray for your peace. Tootles...........
