No, at that time I did not remember any good times. If I did I didn't give him credit for good motives. I can't say I actually saw him at all. I don't think I was able to see him till I made up my mind to. MAYBE I saw one or two glimmers that woke me up to the idea that I needed to see him differently.
The memories weren't gone, they were just eclipsed by the pain I was feeling. And there was a strong sense that if he loved me he couldn't have treated me that way, therefore he mustn't care about me or want to be his best for me. That's what makes the equation of consistent actions plus enough time equals change they can believe in so important.
Thanks for asking me that very timely question, bravo, remembering how I felt and saw things during that time helps me understand why things are the way they are for me now.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
