Hi all. I have being following most posters and it has been getting me down to be honest. Bathe only good news I saw was Maybells job I have read sandi2 posts from the start and the big differance I see is her strength to recognise that's her thinking was not quite right. Most WAS on here I read about seem to have being hit over the head with the selfish stick, over and over again I love who my W used to be but this new person is not someone I would even like I am fully aware of my more than 50% part in the trouble of M and I am working to fix myself and improve.
My W is currently crying whenever shes home ( most days) and seems really down I hate seeing her like this and wish I had not played a part in her being this sad / upset etc Ik have good days and bad but always seem sad , as if I am mourning the loss of M
I am now hoping that W will be happy at the end of all this and her choices ( while hard for me to understand) do indeed make her happy / content.
D10'seems very down and this makes me so sad
D13 seems to be revelling against W ( eg refusing to stay with W overnight)
S15. Now ignores W most of the time
S20. Is turning against W re lots of small lies but are adding up
I have detached and when W is not around I can function ok but when she's home it's hard to show detachment without being cold in front of kids
W gone 5 weeks now and seems to be constantly upset / sad. It's difficult to watch but what can I do. Maybe grass is green syndrome or just guilt
Sorry post was about W but needed to vent. Take care all
