Inside my chrysalis 7

[Zues126]

Hahaha. Hope you read my last posts, just bumped. I think I've seen this in all of us LBS's.

DB coach or not, all I can say at this point is that I'm going to do what jives with my core values and personal needs. I'm not going to worry about how STBX perceives that. I can't control her back, I can't control her to miss me or like me, and even if I could do a song and dance that would win her back I couldn't keep it up my whole life. So I will take care of myself and be respectful but discreet.

Now, I'm still trying to absorb the words of my DB coach when I said something similar about how "we won't live like this once were D and remarried down the road". She dismissed it and said "you're not there yet, do you want to be?" Point is some rules are suspended and it seems like limbo does have its own laws of physics. I am challenging myself because I know if I'm doing things out of hurt, fear, need to control, etc, that aren't helping me, then I need to step up my game.

So no answers, just sharing the questions...