Realize the feeling, pinpoint the exact cause (reserving judgement) then evaluate whether I'm trying to gain control or overreacting. Then find the alternative : breathe, look within, choose to feel differently.
This is my plan (is it weird that in an attempt to not have a plan with how I'll feel, I've now compiled a plan on how to handle them differently?). I like it. I'm going to put in my phone so I always have it with me.
I love what you said about channeling the pain into something productive. That's a long term goal for me. First I need to slow down my reactivity from being the speed of sound to perhaps just the speed of a cheetah. Baby steps.
uR, your words just ring directly to my heart and the right part if my brain. Thank you for your time and effort. It is very much needed and greatly appreciated.
I feel like you're putting all these lessons I know I need to learn into byte sized pieces because if I'm overwhelmed I'll procrastinate and clearly that's not helpful. You keep the wheels turning and I'm really enjoying the process.
Your reminder to me above to be careful and more gentle with myself came at just the right time. Not hear from you that this process shouldn't bring shame or regret so much as a learning and choosing who I want to be. The freedom of that is so beautiful.
