Something BEAUTIFUL is on the Horizon...

[Ss06]

Shining, are we married to the same man?

My h just had a vasectomy and talks about it like it's nothing and has no idea what that unilateral decision says to me.

My H also hates his apartment and makes sure I know that (as if I'm the one who picked it for him).

You're doing great. Your taking absolutely everything in stride is so graceful.

Gotta say, I've never "accidentally" picked up two of something I only needed one of.

By the way, our favorite dinner ever (D and me) is salmon with asparagus. Yummy!!!!

[uRworthy]

First of all, I am sure you looked amazing.

Second of all....who accidentally buys two salmon and asparagus? And plays songs for a person he wants to divorce? And talks about a vasectomy like its normal table convo? Oh wait, I know...crazy, table for one.

Glad your mindset it good. Expect him to go away for a bit...or not...who knows?

You got this, my friend.

[Shining]

Thank you, Ss and uR.

Yep. Weirdo.

The thing is.....I'M the one who wants to go away right now.

After processing a little more, there were equal parts "I want you" and "I don't want you." I don't take either one to mean anything other than.....crazy.

Crazy crazy crazy.

He is all over the place. Truly.

And I'm feeling some anger lately. Normal, I'm sure. I know that nothing needs to be decided today. If I did have to decide today? I'd probably walk away. I'm not doing that, because the cycling is so much a part of this. Both his and mine. Tomorrow I could feel completely different. I did yesterday.... Sooooo....

Anyhoo......

On the job front..... I LOVE MY JOB!!!!! Things are going well there. I'm very lucky. I can't wait to go to work everyday. I hope it doesn't get old.....If it does? Oh, well! I'll enjoy it while it lasts!!

[Ss06]

I wonder if his message, like so many exes, was "I'm not sure I want you but I definitely want you to want me".

Still crazy though.

[uRworthy]

Yep, the anger is normal and comes back around when you are moving forward like you are. Part of it is you seeing him still a mess and thinking, "So, how's all this destruction you caused working out for ya?"

I am so happy that you love your job. That makes a world of difference in your life, Im sure.

[Mighty]

Say what now?! Dang, Shining, this bro is off the chain!

First of all, I am sure you looked amazing.

Second of all....who accidentally buys two salmon and asparagus? And plays songs for a person he wants to divorce? And talks about a vasectomy like its normal table convo? Oh wait, I know...crazy, table for one.

Glad your mindset it good. Expect him to go away for a bit...or not...who knows?

You got this, my friend.

I second uR ^^^^. I mean.... that is so lame. I accidentally bought two salmon and asparagus. That is the best line ever. My favorite, maybe.

Glad you changed the subject before you had to take the next step. You know, homicide, and all that extra effort. I'd hate to have to visit you in the clink. Just make sure you keep that level head. Living in Texas and all... well... just keep a level head.

I totally get that you made the trip and you did it just because. AND because you were rockin! That is the best. I think that helps keep you feeling so much better in yourself, confident, and able to keep things in perspective.

This is one mixed up guy. And the moving... yup... xh was in 4 different places within 7 months. I, however, haven't been in one of them. After he left here, it was top secret.

You are amazing, Shining. I love it. And you posts crack me up.

[LoisB]

Okay, I think Shining provided a new catch phrase for the forum....

"I accidentally bought two salmon and asparagus."

Smokey's "But, what about the cat?" has been replaced. We have a new frontrunner. :-)

[Shining]

I KNOW, YOU GUYS!!!! Now that I read it over and over.....

"I accidentally bought two salmon and asparagus."

BWAUAAAAAHAHAHHA!!! What the what??? There were some more cuckoo comments that I don't even know.... He apparently learned how to cook from one of his gfs. He started reciting culinary words, like "reduction" and "glaze". And apologized for not "seasoning" the asparagus.... He used to just say "salt."

I can imagine, while cooking with his flavor of the week booty call.... I wonder if he speaks as matter of fact as he speaks to me, "Oooh! My WIFE would love this recipe. "

I remember he followed his comment about the accidental double purchase by shaking his head, saying, "yeah. I don't know what I was thinkin."

If only he could apply that last comment to......oh...... The last 18 months.

[BrightFuture]

Oh, Shining, your last post just cracked me up. This is just so funny… “Reduction”… I don’t even know what it means. And I’m a pretty good cook. He is definitely all over the place. You, on the other side, sound very good. I was reading your post about how you don’t want this man the way he is right now and how it would take him a long time to come out of it. I’ve thinking this too, about my H. It might take him a lot longer to resolve his issues. I just might be not there anymore. I can feel it is coming…

Oh, yeah, and the vasectomy. My didn’t advertise it to me, but he didn’t try to hide it either. My friends know about it. So much for the effort and pain… He is still looking for a perfect woman…

[kml]

Lol....I don't think he learned to cook from a gf. That sounds like he's been spending all his time watching cooking shows on tv. Livin' the life!!!!