I have a call with you on Monday and I hope you can read my posts since early February before we talk.
I'm reeling a bit this morning. The PMA is still generally good, but somewhat battered. I should have listened to Briget about just licking my wounds and not talking to anyone.
Instead, I had a one-hour convo with MIL, who while admiring my efforts, feels that my leaving is the only possible way that W will change her mind. She says W says she no longer loves me, hates the sight of me, and considers my presence more and more antagonistic every day. All this is bad for the kids (MIL's dad had an A and her parents divorced).
I talked about my unwillingness to move while W has A going on has refused to do anything about her own mental health, never mind M counseling. But it's clear to me that W's family has pow-wowed and the consensus is that I must move. W has told her that she would move, but take the kids with her. I said that W's assertion that she would uproot the kids is indicative of W's state of mind--and is not in the best interests of the kids. But she was not buying my view.
I'm so confused this morning about the true meaning of love and my responsibilities as a husband, father, and child of God. What am I to do? Is there any roadmap to W's heart? Maybe ai can do a real 180 and ask her to ML this evening. If nothing else, I'll enhance my rights to seek a D for her ongoing refusal to engage in marital relations.
This just sucks and I think I'll just pray for the strength to make it through the rest of the day.
