That negaitve thinking is brutal .. Early on I can tell you it had me completely in its power, then I found things that I could do .. for me .. that made me feel alive, and good .. in a way deep down I could tell myself .. "Ya know, I will be ok regardless"
Its easy to let the WAS moods/actions effect you ... I still catch myself I can be elated if she gives me a bit .. to totally defeated if she pulls back. Truth is now .. its starting to numb. Had a good day Tuesday but I knew it was a test and she would pull back .. and yup .. no word in 2 days other than about S. I have been even keel all week though so I know I am detaching better.
Thats my point to you Jefe ... you have to become the rock, little emotion as hard as that is .. wave after wave can crash into that rock but it does not move, its stays true, she will know you are the rock if you exhibit this action, she will know deep down she can count on you. Detach, GAL, do your 180's ... these can be done without being cold, find yourself again.
