In some ways, your situation is so very similar to mine and I read much of what I am going through in your trials and tribulations. While I am still new here and can't offer advice, please know that I am praying for you and keeping you in my positive thoughts as you deal with things. I greatly appreciated raliced and zew's points of view on letting go vs. still standing. FWIW, know that there is someone out there reading this and rooting for you to find peace and solace in moving forward.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
