I practice radical acceptance everyday and I don't think I'm severely disturbed.
So what can you do about your ruminating. You've been very vocal about H not doing his work, what's your work here?
I see flashes of your humor surfacing. Yay!
There's nothing wrong with writing it and getting it outside yourself. During the S I wrote many emails to H that I never sent. I'd sit on them for a couple of days and then re-read them. Most were rejected. If you write it and in a few days you still want to send it, do but be careful of the expectations you put on it.
((( ))) Hope you feel as good as you sound.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss