I have been dim (as much as I can be while living with my MLC). This has allowed me to settled my thoughts and emotions in relation to my M.
I've gotten back to my calmness my peace my center! I know that mentally, & emotinally, I will be GREAT with whatever the outcome of my M. I truly deep down want my H and myself to be at peace and happy with life, and if that means together great and if separate that is great also.
I feel so much better when NOT thinking about my M or H, not worrying about the what if's.
This gift of time has allowed me to prepare myself, to work on myself work I will continue to do, time I'm grateful for.
YES I think it's hard with my MLC still at home, but this allowed me a slower detachment process, to sort of "get over it" but still have some type of R.
I think my H and I are getting back to being real friends.
I know that my H is being allowed to have his cake and eat it to by staying in the house but not truly commited to M. But I dont let that bother me as much, he is not the only one benefitting from this "set up".
For some crazy reason, I'm HAPPIER now then I have been in a very very long time, happier with ME, not my stitch but with myself.
I have no plans to get back on the roller coaster, I'm taking a much needed break!!
I have let my H know that soon I will be making a decision about this M, I just wanted to give him a heads up, that soon I may be leaving....
I told him I don't want him to rush to make his choice/decision, but that does not mean I will not make my choice to decide what I want/need, and it may be to be totally free of this M, so I can truly move on.
Gift of time=priceless.
Me 43 ring off Oct 2014 (my ring back on Feb 2015) H 51 (ring off 7/2013) M 2007 T 1996 S 14 July 2013- H told me he was unhappy.....said he is staying for Son Feb 18 2014 Found out about OW
