To be honest, I'm ok with it. Is it what I would prefer? No, but I thinks it's needed for both of us. I deserve better. Looking back, I realize how weak I came across. I just wasn't 'there' mentally or emotionally.
I think there may still be a small part of me that would want to work it out should she come to me, but it would require a lot out of her. The recent discovery/admission that she was unfaithful prior to BD and never planned on telling me is more hurtful than the A.
Can I see us finding our way back to each other down the road? I don't know. I really hope she continues to work on herself and eventually feels she's in a better place. I just don't know how that 'restarting' of a failed relationship would work. I'd think we'd still have issues from the past to discuss. Or do you just consider the past to be the past and start fresh? I think I'd always have trust issues, but who knows what time would bring.
