First, thanks for continuing to check on me and your support, I really appreciate it!
Secondly, I think there is a level of detachment where you are putting your feelers out there in the market, just to see what is out there. Talking to women is just talking, it takes a long time to build that emotional connection. From reading your posts, I know you have a strong constitution and will only proceed if it is right for you.
I would like to say it sounds like your W is really reaching for stuff here. Really hard. Looking for any tiny detail to jump all over you. I know you might not want to hear this, but it reminds me a lot of Eddy's W when she got the police involved and all that other stuff. Really reaching. Not that your W would do that, but when they get desperate and have no grounds and they try to shove a square peg in a round hole, they really get pshyco. Theres no other word for it. This might be what Eddy was mentioning.
You are an amazing person to be able to stomach this, even if it was in knots some of the time. It just goes to reaffirm your level of detachment but willing acceptance if she wants to give any effort to try and return. Reminds me of the "Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do" scene from The Passion, and of course the Bible.
Use that support group from church and any others. I don't think you should be shy. You need it for you and she obviously doesn't need it or care. Keep doing what is good for you and your family.
