Thanks Christine--you've been another steady source of support and inspiration and I really appreciate it.
There's not much for me to say. I also think that OM is nudging W in the direction that if she is so unhappy, it's okay to force me out. That was certainly the drift of one of his e-mails to her last year. I really dislike him for the harm he is causing her, but that too, is out my control.
As for spirituality, I don't know if what I'm doing now is arrogant bluster and I hope my heart is truly changing rather than being manipulative. But if you truly believe, then you have to have faith in His worldy plan and begin channeling the heart from one of self-gratification to one of loving others--or at least viewing them as God would view them. This does not mean become a doormat, but to view life through an entirely different prism. While my life is in complete turmoil, in a way I can't describe I'm also getting an intial taste of peace that I have never really experienced before. In addition, I have begun recasting my relationship with my kids to something much better than what it was before.
I really should focus more on work today and leave this board until tonight. Thanks again.
