Riding the rollercoaster

[dawgy]

Thanks guys for the input once again . W seems to come around a little then right back out again .I believe shes being controlled by the OM . I think they are still on but went deeper underground . Not sure but this is my feeling . I wont know for sure unless i snoop and we know thats not DBing . Im just confused all the time .Im not cut out for this , I feel humiliated alot . Thinking that W and OM are laughing at me because they are doing whatever they want and cant do anything about it .
That feeling is what led me to assault that POS to start with . To top it off i tore ligaments in my knee playing hockey the other night and i have a full blown cold . Wow lololol bring it on . What else can i pile on before I break .
Hoju thx for the advice , i have been able to interact with women very positively very easily which helps the confidence a bit . But the sting of being tortured and abused by the woman I adore overshadows everything . I try to understand how someone you have loved and slept beside for 25 + years can do this to their spouse . Why not sit down and say im not happy anymore , Im leaving . Then leave and start a new relationship after that . But cheating , thats just sleazy and disgusting , totally wrong