I just wrote back, "will do. I love that you make these books for D."
(no reply to that).
And... for anyone who thinks i have made any progress whatsoever, let me just state for the record that I still feel so upset anytime I get any communication from him that shows he is D-O-N-E. For example, making plans with our D without me for months in the future.
I don't feel very emotionally connected with my own family. I don't like spending time with them. I want to be part of a family I can feel connected to. I thought I had that. I thought I had someone who would love me unconditionally. I cannot believe how wrong I was.
After a year the hurt still feels very, very deep and I wonder how long it will take me to really truly heal.
