Going Down Hill

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So tomorrow is my mediation with wife. Splitting up assets. Seeing who and how much we each get the kids. Deciding who get the house. It will probably be the worst day of my life. Arguing over things that I wish just did not have to be done and with someone that I still very much love and don't want to hurt. I know I have to be strong for me and my kids. I almost want to cave and let her have everything. But a lot of people say that I will regret it in the future.
Things I want. 50/50 with the kids. She has said in the past that this will not happen
I want the house. It is what I thought our dream house. We built 3 years ago. But wife reminded me that I was the one to push to build a new house and she just wanted to buy another house for the time being. No she wants it for some reason.

Told wife this morning that this feels like the last day we will ever be a family. She said she has been to busy being angry and sad to think about it. But off to work out to clear mind. Anyone with suggestions for tomorrow would be great.