I can be the lighthouse but not the tugboat

[daring]

Thanks CaliGuy and hi Gwen- thanks for stopping by also!

It's hard, but I am continuing to let him be to figure out his own stuff. I know if I don't leave him alone to get through this there can't be a restored M as a possible ending to this story.

I had a phenomenal time with my old HS friend yesterday and today. We realized we hadn't actually seen each other in 24 yrs- crazy how we can lose touch with people we were so close to!
We stayed up until the wee hours drinking wine, reminiscing, and exchanging thoughts on our situations ( she is having marriage issues also). What's beautiful about our friendship is that we reconnected like it was no time at all AND we listened and pondered and offered thoughts but no " you shoulds" when it came to discussing our sitchs. Just trying to understand and make sense of our own messed up pasts and those of our Hs and how does this all fit into what we want from life.
I get so tired of people who tell me what to do and why am I staying etc, that it was just so nice to hang with someone who could just be there in the moment with me and not have to advise me.
We have promised to make at least an annual but preferably semiannual visit with each other.

Tomorrow I scheduled a spa day for myself. Then it's conference time.