I hope it all goes away, Rick. Or that my marriage turns around and there's no longer a reason to feel this was (Wishful thinking? Maybe, but it's all I have to believe that this will all be worth it some day).
I have started to do some of the things you mentioned for GAL. I'm working out, doing nightly hour-long walks, counseling, and pulling some long hours at work. I've always talked to strangers, so that's nothing new, heh heh. I joined a divorce/separation group as well but haven't met them yet. I just find that I'm spending far more time alone than I care for...time like that only leads to thinking, something I'm trying to avoid as much as I can.
The loss of my family, as I sure you know as well I'm so very sorry to say, has left such a gaping hold in my soul. And I just don;t have anything to fill it with. I'm sure i will eventually, as you prove out, but for now it just hurts. Every minute of every hour.
Thank you, by the way, Rick. I sincerely appreciate your perspective and your sharing it with me. I look forward to reaching the plateau you found.
