"I look back and I have a very direct communication method. Not unemotional or mean, but probably more closer to passive aggressive about things."

A direct communication method and passive aggressive are very different things - may be worth you thinking some more about this area in terms of work on you?

Hope this is helpful - just struck me as I was reading about your sitch :-)

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus