I know the feeling well. I remember going through Walmart and tearing up. I can tell you that it will go away. It takes time. Right now you need grieve so that you can heal.
You do need to GAL. There are things you can do that are free. I went to counseling, church, divorce care group, I rode my bike. I was doing 14 mile bike rides. I talked to strangers I went fishing. i got a 2nd job.
There will be triggers. It is part of the process. You may feel that this is the end of the world. It isnt. hard to believe at your early stage. But things do turn around.
Get a GAL plan for the holidays. Keep posting my friend it will help you
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”