3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

H already said he will not be spending Thanksgiving and Xmas with my family. He's going to sit home and drink and watch tv. Classic passive aggressive... Trying to make me feel guilty while my family is begging him to be with us. They love him so much. His birthday is in the beginning of Dec. Not sure if he'll want to do anything with me.
This is such a depressing time of the year, for the first time in 18 years we won't be celebrating the holidays together.