3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

Thanks, I understand children make a huge difference. Your choices affect them as well whereas most my decisions only impact me.

He's on an unprovoked two day drinking bender. Ignoring me except when I faked him for help setting up my new phone. He wasn't much help since he was drunk and frustrated with the phone. So still on old phone and sleeping by myself tonight. No panic attacks though, I'm managing to stay pretty even keel in my emotions during this bout.