Continuing DBing after the affair

[PeterV2]

Yeah, W said to me tonight that she'd rather get me out of her life than put up with all this anger she has for me.

I think I figured out what she's mad about, though. I get a lot of spam in my email - sexual stuff - they must have got my email address from one of those sites I went on back in January. I've been getting them ever since and I just delete them. I think that she thinks I'm in conversation with these spammers.

I went onto a website MeetUp to find some like minded folk to meet up with - one group is for hiking and backpacking which I like to do, another was a support group for divorced/separated people. I went to a couple of their meetings at a local coffee shop but found them too depressing. No idea of DBing.

W accused me tonight that I was MeetingUp with the singles scene. I guess she hasn't check out the MeetUp web site as much as she's check out my email on my computer. I was out of town for a funeral back in September and I got an email on my cell phone that one of my passwords has been changed. That can only get changed on my office computer, so obviously my W was on my computer searching for incriminating material and changed my password. I asked her about it and she denied it. Doesn't surprise me - more lies.

She accuses me of lying, but I think she's projecting.

She accuses me of being a selfish baastard. Says that as long as I get my way I'm happy. That I don't think of her. Man, what's she smoking.

She called me tonight to chew me out. We went around the circle a few times and then I said that this convo is not productive so I'm saying goodbye, have a good sleep and hung up.

Now I have to go give my spew jacket a good cleaning so it'll be fresh for tomorrow.