Sorry to hear you're having a rough night Shakes. There's nothing like getting the house ready for Thanksgiving to reflect about how your life has changed. I doubt you're living in denial, most of us just aren't built to absorb this kind of change that quickly and you're still adjusting.
I hear you about the whole family - this all seems so unnatural to me. I've taken some comfort in the way my remaining family, including my In-laws, have rallied round. I guess in some ways my family has unexpectedly grown throughout this.
I'm glad you got some extra time with SS15, regardless of the circumstances.
