Shall hate be fairer lodged than gentle love?

[Shakspr]

I'm not doin' so good tonight. The fact that I am divorced for real is starting to set in. I would like to see the difference between hope and living denial a little clearer. I do accept that I can hope as long as I want. Right now it just seems like that will exacerbate my pain and stretch it out over time.

I am glad that I have no hate for XW. But I just can't wrap my head around all of it.

All I ever wanted was a family that was whole. Flawed, sure. But intact and capable of facing the world with a smile and a wink.