John I was with my mine for 25 years. Good times and bad times.I havent heard or seen her in over 2 years. This is very hard stuff. But you cant let the depression control you. The holidays accentuate the pain and disbelief of the sitch. I remember them well. We all do the same thing, ruminate. We cant get the memories out of our minds. The traditions the smells.
I understand the hurt, the loss. Wish i could make it go away for you and everyone here. Thinking about her and your stich every waking hr will consume you.
Better holidays are coming. Just b patient.
My 1st two holidays were the hardest. I love tradition and they were broken.
Dont be hard on yourself.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
