I find myself rereading your post almost every day. THANK YOU!
I feel like you got inside my head and added a whole bunch of good juju for me to remember during dark days.
I am grateful I live in a state where separation is recognized. I can draw those boundaries and protect myself and my girls without filing for D. Unfortunately the business side of separation seems to be at odds with the DBusting philosophy. I was so confused but I keep coming back to your wisdom GG...
My actions are coming from a place of reason. My goals are self preservation and peace. I am not comfortable with the speed of this process but I am comfortable with my motives. For now that is going to have to suffice.
I am trying to pack my DB luggage wisely. Sadly I have lost a good friend or two (they thought I was too slow and should be over it) but I also realized I have a lot of fantastic people in my life. I am In IC and while the emotional side of things are slowly progressing I understand that this will take time. I keep reading but I don't want to obsess. I keep praying but I don't want to become fanatical.
The trick is in the balance. I am carrying some heavy weight with the business of a formal separation. I guess that's ok as long as I let it go as soon as possible to let in other tools that will help me grow and learn.
You are such a gifted writer GG. Thanks for sharing.
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou