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[Barrybran]

Journaling:

I had a feeling I hadn't had in a while today. I missed talking with my wife. I spent much of yesterday by myself and all of today with my kids and it reminded me of a conversation my wife and I had before we were dating. She mentioned at the time that she enjoyed my company because I could give her an adult conversation instead of being alone or talking to S7, who at the time was 3. All my wife and I seem to have done lately is fight or disagree, so the break is good for us, but I had the feeling that I missed the interaction with her.

The feeling didn't interfere with the interactions I did have with her today though. She is out of town again on training and I notified her of a bill that had come in. We exchanged briefly, she updated me on work things and she mentioned she would be going to annual conferences with this new position. I kept things light hearted by saying my preferred destination and time to which she replied that she would be going and not me. I left the conversation at that and got on with my day. It wasn't worth continuing on with. In the evening, she called my phone to speak to the kids and when the phone was passed back to me, she mentioned that a storm was coming so I said "ok then, have a good night and I'll catch you next time" and hung up.

I think the feeling today makes my soccer games on Wednesday nights more important for me. It's the best chance I'll have outside of work to interact with adults so I'll be looking forward to it. Work is good at times for interaction but I work with teenagers much of the time and occasionally it feels like babysitting older kids. I did think of finding websites for talking to people but that's what got me into this mess in the first place so I think I'll just tough it out back in the real world.