My W's birthday was just last week. I know how you feel. I too have found myself tearing up in church often. It's a place I bare my soul to God and I don't try and hold back there. Just let it wash over you and try and let it go.
Hang in there fth, you are doing well for being so soon into the process. Keep doing for yourself and the kids. H probably won't acknowledge the cards, try to drop all expectations, all it leads to is disappointment. He just isn't able to think of you and his family in a normal way. If you do those type of things, do it because YOU want to and don't expect a response. If you do get one, be thankful but don't expect it to happen again. Hard to do I know but you will learn over time that it's the expectations that hurt us the most.
Do something for you this week. Something you may have wanted to do but never had the chance. It will help.
