Going Down Hill

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I'm trying to make sense of this all and I think it helps to compare it to something. This is the best I can think of.nI think of the failure of my marriage sort of like this.

This is like a important test in school. Where you studied and thought you were going to do good. When you went to wright the test you realized that you studied the wrong lesson. You still tried your best but ultimately failed the test. Who is to blame?

You beg and plead with the teacher. Trying to explain and hoping you can get a make up exam or extra credit assignment to no avail. Then you get mad and angry at the teacher b/c she did not give you another chance and say how unfair she is.
But you soon realize that it is your fault. For maybe goofing off in class and not listening correctly. Not asking other school mates to confirm that you were studying was the right lesson. Maybe the teacher will give you another chance. Maybe not. But I'm guessing next time you will listen a lot better in class so that this will never happen again