jim0987 #4 - strengthening my inner cat

[jim0987]

Overtly hate seems to be giving way to indifference - the tone of what she says (to me and others) is more she feels trapped here and Im the reminder of that rather than hates me.

She's very focused on how she deserves someone who is going to 'beat down doors to be with her'

There is a trust issue there toward me and actually that's not likely to change as I realised its been pretty entrenched for years.

Having said that it doesn't change my action plan as if she doesn't want the improved me then she doesn't and in the end I want to be with someone who loves me for me