I was at a seminar all yesterday. Everyone went out for dinner afterwords (about 10 of us). She came with our younger son. It was nice to see her out and being social. To see her smiling and enjoying herself made me happy.
I had a dream last night where we held hands tight and she told me she loved me. That made me cry in my dream and I have tears as I write this

It is very hard not to tell her I love her and to give her a hug right now. I know I shouldn't and that it very well may not be welcomed, but it is still hard.

M-44
W-44
Sons- 11&14
Married- 18
Together- 27
Separation mentioned- 9-29-14
Still together, but not "together"
"if you feel rotten and forgotten,
remember there'll be better days."