Really too late....

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So I went out tonight and I'm glad I did. My friend had a bday party for her husband and a few of my friends were there that I haven't seen in a long time.

I really didn't want to go, I sat around putting it off. Partly because I've become such a homebody and it was after all raining! And partly because I was waiting for D13 to get home so H wouldn't have "free time." Yes, I realize that's pathetic and even while I was doing that was telling myself how ridiculous it was!

I knew I had to go so I finally made myself! I did tell him he was welcome to come if he wanted, I knew he probably wouldn't come(and was right), he doesn't know any of them well and he has admittedly become anti-social.

It was nice to get out and not really think about my marriage, although I was asked a few times how H was and how it was having him home, I just smiled and said really nice. Which is actually true.