I'm so sorry to hear this. I know it sukks like a mo. I do know this. You are a smart, beautiful, kind woman who has handled this with grace and maturity. You have grown so much and I always love reading your posts. I'm not sure your h ever really appreciated what a prize you are and someone else will. I'm sure of it.
Cry. Eat some chips. It's okay. You are strong and will get through this better than ever. Sending you a hug and some frozen custard:-)