I do wonder whether she realizes that her dreams of living rich off my alimony are now over, and is just trying to weasel back into my good graces. Or, if she ever could love me.
I believe you answered your own question better than I could.
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Either way, I can't be married to her. She is sick with spending addiction, and terminally low self esteem. Who knows what our relationship will look like, but I can never trust her if she has unbridled access to finances.
Who knows what may lay await in the future. You have found yourself again, so maybe she will turn out to be better later on than she is now.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!