@Sandi: Thank you so very much for your insight. I sincerely appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts.
If some of this is what is driving her animosity, that brings up a whole other set of thoughts and emotions in me. Regardless of who she may be right now (or even if she knows who she is), shes is my wife and my best friend for a long time. I love her more than I can possibly explain. If she's in that kind of turmoil, I so badly want to reach out to her to help make that stop. I don't want her to hurt...I've never wanted her to hurt.
To know that somewhere along the line I am the cause of at least some(majority? all?) of that hurt is a hard pill to swallow. And knowing there is nothing I can do to help her makes it even worse.
I guess all I can do at this point is to be the best me that I can be and be patient. Unfortunately, patience is not a virtue I own, but I can vow to give it my all.
I can only hope that she and I find a way back. I may have more to make up for than I realized. Given the opportunity, I would gladly do just that.
Now I have to find a way to create that opportunity.
(I see that my last handful of posts haven't shown up yet due to moderation, so If my responses seem a tad out of whack I apologize)
