I am certainly not a vet so I can't lend the great advice that some of the others can, but reading your story, it sounds a lot like mine and my heart goes out to you. My husband went from BD to S to filing for divorce in barely over a month and the day he actually filed I bawled ALL day long. All I can tell you for sure is what works for me and that is to just take it one minute at a time. I can see why becoming an alcoholic during this time would be easy, but I have resisted that urge/temptation.
Cry if it is what works for you and do whatever makes you feel good....if feeling good is even possible for you right now.
Hang in there, Kgirl. I don't post on here often, but there are a LOT of great people on here who have wonderful advice to give. My thoughts and prayers will be with you!
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids