Of course your feeling like crap and I would guess you will for a day or 2 or 3.

That doesn't mean you aren't in a better place to handle this than you were when you first came here.

You've been through a lot and you're beginning to see your worth. H has no clue about that so should in no way be seen as a judge of your worth.

I had a pretty tough blow (work) a couple of weeks ago and it hit me like a ton of bricks, I was devastated for about 24 hours, literally in a ball, sobbing, couldn't sleep, etc. Then I went back to my meditation, changed the story I was telling myself and let it go. For a while I thought there was something wrong with me that I felt in control so quickly.

My IC who I had called for a unscheduled appt said I was fine, just not used to behaving in a healthier way.

I hope for the same for you, KGirl. You CAN do this.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss