Thank you for such wonderful words, job. I do feel I'm growing. There is a very clear shift in my thinking, and the way I look at things.
It's not as if I'm a whole different person, though. I still have the same fears. I think I just slow down and sort them out now, instead of allowing them to rule my day. I'm learning I have more control of those things. I can choose what I will, and will not allow to get in.
The things that do sneak by me and creep in? I call those out and let them pass through. Like kicking them out the back doggie door.
Heather, I would love to be stalking you right now! Your life is turning some hard corners, just like mine. Friggin' u-turn, at times.
What you've done and what you have now are huge accomplishments.
I'm no stranger to financial stress, family crapola, and learning as a parent to put down the proverbial, "foot."
Reading your thread... Wow, Heather. Struggles and all, you're doing some amazing things. You don't seem to see it yet, perhaps some outside distractions pull you a bit.
You have all the ingredients. The potential for everything you want is right there for you to grab. You just need to believe you can.
I had to learn to stop looking to others for the validation. Even if they said the words I wanted to hear, it didn't make me suddenly believe it. So I kept seeking, thinking I just needed to hear it more often, and from different people. (Bosses, family, H, mom...)
No one out there made me believe in myself.
People here guided me in the right direction, which was a place I didn't want to go at first. Looking inside was painful for me. Still is. But, so worth it.
After I dug down and got past the goo.... Well, you know what's there.
