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[KGirl]

Well, time has come to face reality.

I texted H asking about a recipe that I had left there. He responded to my question, and then with:

H: Also, we need to talk about a few things and moving forward with filing. Let me know if you prefer to meet in person or have a phone all and what times work for you to disuss this weekend or next week.

I guess I imagined that coming up a little differently? Like, maybe starting with the fact that he had decided that for sure?

Me: OK. I take it you have decided that is what you want to do for sure? I would rather discuss on the phone [listed some times tomorrow, I don't want to delay that.]

H: Yes, it's what I've decided [says what times he'd be free, offers to call me at a certain time.]

I thought I would feel better having an answer. And I know it's possible the answer could change but the possibility seems so far away now. Now it's hitting me like a giant truck. I guess I still thought deep inside that he wouldn't actually go through with it, and we'd figure it out, or at least try. I still am finding it hard to believe he is done with me without ever attempting to talk about it. I guess this is BD #2? I had planned to do some things tomorrow morning but I am just devastated and don't even know how I am going to get through this phone call with him. I guess a positive is that at least I don't have to push anything forward if he's ready to do the work to end things, and therefore I won't have to hire a lawyer and deal with all of that. We've had disussions when I lived at home about the actual settlement, and all there is the house, and we agreed how that would work. I don't have a problem with him hiring someone to do the paperwork and me just looking at it - there really isn't anything for me to be financially hurt about, unless he tries to pull something surprising.

Ugh. OK, it's settling in now. I really don't want to talk to him in person about it - am I missing out on any opportunity here by talking on the phone?

I'm still so confused. He was texting me about a restaurant just earlier this week and how they changed their prices and made a pun out of it. It seemed promising. I guess I let my expectations get the better of me.