I made it.....mostly :)

[mishka422]

Dear God Betsey, a sisterhood I never want to have with anyone. It's a horrible thing to have happen and so scarring. I'm so glad to see that you were able to take the experience and use it ways to make you a lot stronger and more well rounded person. That is so wonderful.

I, unfortunately, went the other direction. I turned inward and haven't been able to get back out of the protective shell. I can trust but it's very limited. I don't judge men for what one man did but I don't trust my judgment at all and I talk myself out of taking chances on people and things all the time. I see them as doomed to fail or pointless because of the insecurities I hold on to.

Marc is just unmotivated. He says he wants a job to at least be doing something but he is limited as to where he can look because he has no transportation other than the golf cart. That limits him to the southern half of our town. There aren't many opportunities here. Even the fast food places aren't hiring. He needs a long term plan but I have no idea how to sit him down and form a strategy since I can't form a strategy for myself!

I love you guys so much. Although we have never met, I feel like you are some of the most honest, trustworthy people I've ever known. You are smart, successful, and brave and I appreciate all of your insight!