Thanks Shining and Life's Twists- I really need to keep the focus on me and the kids- it's just so hard some days!!
Our lives remain so entertwined no matter what b/c we have 4 kids who have busy activities and I have to rely on his help ( and my nanny's) due to my unpredictable schedule.
But I definitely need to keep the communication as minimal as possible right now.

It's been a little easier this week since he is traveling. I am traveling all next week so that's good too.
Sunday is S8s bday party so I have to deal with him then. I've noticed that birthdays or other celebration days are definitely harder.
Will fill up my PMA cup so I have plenty to spare before seeing him!

Thanks again for the support everyone- this board really is such a help.


Me 41 H 40
M 20 T 23
S 19,16, 8 D 13
BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work
BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D
Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015
Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown