Gogofo - no longer piecing 2nd BD

[gogofo]

Yes she did invite me on a trip, we had three planned in the next three weeks.

Today we were supposed to go and stay overnight out of town to take her cousins to the airport. I was sent a text message Wednesday night that said "don't worry, you don't have to go I am taking my SIL". We were both excited to go and even talked about it on Monday night. We had planned on having a lot of fun.

Next week we were supposed to go to a concert, but I have zero hope that it will happen.

She told me to plan our Thanksgiving, so I did. Then she told me on Wednesday that she did not want to do Thanksgiving together. She would have kids the beginning of the week and I could have them the end of the week. This was after I asked if she would be okay with going out of town Wednesday through Friday of that week, she agreed to go.

So yes we did have quite a few trips planned, but now she signed the papers and is separating her from our existing plans.

I know I need to leave her be for awhile. The sad part is that the D papers could possibly go through in 4 weeks. I think she made a decision empassioned with emotional pain and I know me pushing or her feeling pressure from me will only validate this decision for her.

I need to be brave and take on the Law of Surrender. It was suggested I read it by my coach. I need to be brave and accept what I cannot control. It will be difficult, but I think it will be the best for me and my W.

I know that I cannot be the one to show her the repercussions of her decisions, she has to realize this on her own at her own pace.

My last mistake was thinking she was ready to increase the pace of working on the R. If I was more in tune and not working emotionally I would have just enjoyed the situation and moments were we sharing. I do believe we would be on the trip together today if we had done this.

She was resisting my pulls on the rope, I did not realize I was pulling until she pulled hard the other direction.