just reporting in that i'm still alive out here. I think it makes me pretty blue to read people's painful stuff or rehash mine or even think about it. I bore myself with it- i am in a holding pattern of some sort - not sure if i'm "standing" or just sittin by the roadside.
Feel a bit blue- donated first batch of mom's possessions - the actual loading up of a small portion of all of our lives from her/our home - was sad. it's made ma a bit depressed - actual, physical "letting go". i've never been good at goodbyes, etc.
her birthday was a couple days ago- h's is today. sad to not share those days - workin on mom's house- cleaning up, sorting thru, etc. keepin busy-
now that i'm here- i don't have anything really important or upbeat to say-
worked a bunch up til now this month- that was really good. think i'll clear out before i depress anyone here- have wonderful day- the fall leaves are lovely- got that goin for me... lots to do today before it gets COOOOLLLLLLLD. NOT quite feelin ready to be cold yet - it's comin tho huh? whether i like it or not- (sums up my life at the moment doesn't it)
