I was reading your post about crying in the foodstore. I know, me too. like you, i can always see someone worse off, or know of them - and make myself man up and get past it.
something about the time we 've spent in foodstores, picking up someone elses favorite thing- a treat...
i'm lonely too- i feel cheated because i didn't have kids also. . Nobody had a gun to my head- it was half my decision also - i DID however loosely plan to have this guy in my life forever, which he lied and lied to further. who the heck knows about this junk - it sure is junk.
. I still feel that nobody has everything- we all get some of this, and not some of that. there are many tradeoffs and decisions in life- we do the best we can. maybe i spent too much time being grateful for what i did have - to wo rry about what i did not.
ANYWAY- YOU SOUND okay tho, i think it's natural to be lonely- better to acknowledge it than to shove it all down all the time. life alone is not pleasant.
i can remember times when i'd have killed for some solitued- ha!!! that saying about "if you got half your 2wishes - you'd double your trouble" sure seems true.
funny old life isn't it?
anyway- i couldn't kill a chicken ei ther - i'm even squirmie about bugs these days. i gu ess the more vulnerable we are- the more we respect the vulnerability of otehrs. animals are people too.
oh well- onward and upward. wish i had something smart today- KNOW YOU'RE IN GOOD company- and good for you to hone in on the good stuff - positive potential in you.
i think (gulp) we'll come out of this okay (someday) - i'm pretty darn sure - so as long as we're takin those steps forward -
fall down 23, get up 24...
xxoo have a great day (or try anyway) and you're soooo rite about the voting - now if there were only some such thing in this life and country as REAL & total equality for women- but it's waaay better than it ever was before - soooo - we keep movin forward rite??
