Hi! I've been married for 20 years. This is my second marriage. We both never thought we would be in this place, looking at each other and not liking where we are at. But for me I'm so heartbroken. I'm at the point now where I just want to run, give up, I'm tired of trying to always be the person to change. Why is it that H never want to be accountable for their take in when things started going wrong. What happened to the H who wants to be the strong one. Why is it so hard right now to be strong. I'm loosing it. He. Is not a fair person. I'm not allowed to feel, or to tell him how he has hurt me. He doesn't care to know how his actions have affected me. We have a daughter together and 2 sons from a previous marriage, mine. He helped me raise my sons as his own, he loved them and treats them even now as his own. I'm so grateful for him for that. The Boys are both out of the house, one is married with my first grandchild, the other has a steady girlfriend. Our daughter is 19, going to college and living at home. I'm also going to college. I'm almost finished. Going to be a Phlebotomist! Graduate in December this year! Very excited about my new journey! It's either do or die! My husband has been supportive but has been giving me an emotional pause. We are very disconnected emotionally. I'm very alone when it comes to "us". So much more, just scratching the surface.
